I can't believe Samantha is starting 1st grade...a couple of years ago I was so excited for this day! Now, I am dreading it! She's my baby (okay, I know she's the oldest...but she is my first baby). I have been trying to psych myself up...but it's pointless! I am SOOO sad! I was making her lunch for tomorrow and I started to CRY! All I could think of was that she won't eat lunch with me anymore (besides weekends and holidays). I feel like this is the beginning of the end...I will no longer be her world. I won't be her best friend. She will make new friends and have this whole other life that I am not a part of. I am heartbroken. Before bed we read "Love You Forever" and when the mom sings the song...I started crying again! I couldn't get through the book. Does it get better? Benson kept saying..."stop crying" and it was making Sammy said so I explained to her that I am not sad because she won't like it...I am sad because she will LOVE it! Sammy kept telling me "mom, I will always be in your heart and you will be in my heart" and "every time I do a craft project I will feel like you are with me". I am feeling bad that she is comforting me (shouldn't it be the other way around?). I am happy for her and I know how great it is for her...but it's not great for me! Tomorrow I should be a total wreck...I have already cried my eyes out tonight! I am trying to be strong so I won't make Sammy sad. I'll keep you posted!
Why don't they send 2 year olds to all day school because honestly...I am ready for Nate to start tomorrow...just kidding (kind of)!
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Hang in there! I feel your pain! It just shows that you're a great mom! And I agree on the all day school for the 3 year olds!!
Good Luck tomorrow! ~ I'm totally with you on a two year old school (and 16mo school?!) :)
Thats cute. It just shows what a good mom you are!
Oh Kyle, I wish I had advice for you. Let me know what gets you through it so you can help me in a few years. Hang in there :)
I'm crying right along with you...and Luke's only starting Kindy! It's so bad that I'm *this* close to scrapping school for him and enroll him in the online school. Luckily enough people in my ward homeschool so I could join them with activities. The closer to school starting the more appealing that idea is. Good luck Kyle, my thoughts are with you today!!!!
Can't say I relate, but it sounds like it's tough. Hang in there!
I am not going to lie... I am a little sad today too. Maya couldn't figure out why Sammy would not be with us today when the boys came over :(.
Kyle, it never get's easy. Never. If it's not one thing, it's the other. They are always "moving on" and always, it's farther from you. But like Sammy said, "you'll always be in their hearts" and them in yours.
Man, now you're making me sad and we still have 3 weeks of summer vacation left!!!
Sorry, I know that's not any consolation, but it's reality! So just cry, hug and laugh with them all you can.
I can't even imagine sending my girls off to school... I do NOT look forward to that day. Sammy will do great and it will strengthen your relationship all the things she will be excited to tell you about!
I am right there with you. We went to the Kindergarten party last night and we had to leave them in the classroom and we went to the library to fill out our paper work. I guess to get them used to leaving and he cried, which in turn made me cry. Hopefully, next week goes better. It will be great today.
The book "Love You Forever" always makes me cry!!! I'm so sad too! It doesn't ever get better. The tears will stop coming, but it is always sad. First grade is a hard adjustment! My kids are all SOOO excited and they don't understand why I'm not either:( We all should've gone to lunch today and cried together.
I will tell my sister to take good care of Sammy. I called my sister last night and told her to watch out for my kiddos. Both my kids were so excited but I reminded them several times I loved them and to Choose the right.
Kyle, you are such a great mom and you have such great, sweet children!! I totally cried reading your post!! This being a mom is the MOST incredible thing in the world, and yet it breaks your heart sometimes!! I part of our job is to gradually be willing to give them wings and watch them slowly take flight!!
I LOVED what Sammy said about you being in each other's hearts!! What a treasure!!
oh my word--that was priceless! what a tender heart you have. i know i'll feel the same when Evie heads off to school.
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